Well me right now feeling cold in stomach .. actually don't know wat i m feeling like i did something 4 the 1st time in my life and got fOOked up .. man wat plans i made since last nite, i thought abt it and now here i m shitting over here..... thought of talking to a gal from a long time and made plans ..thought who the hell wil refuse my proposal after listening my speech cuz i believed to make a senti wala speech but alas.... didn't get time to start the speech though!!
there is a gal in my colllege well there r many but there is 1 .. hmm not 1 ,,many ,,i wana be frnds with.. some i talk to and some i never intreacted with .This was a similar case the latter one.............since last sem i thought of doing so but i kept it delaying cuz was afarid how wud it turn out to be and today my wildest fears came true, that also a moment ago.......
The reason i tried to impliment my plan today was that there were not many guys and gals in the college and she was not with the grp she used to ..
usual morning and i thought man i gotta study so i was planning of bunking the college! see i m using the word study that means a lot for me,,man i was damm seroius abt this word today and then all seriousness vanished as soon i saw her going to the college from my room window. than i decided today is the chance for me. i thought wat to say and made a perfect speech, perfect cuz i belive i carrry feeling and sentiments with wat i say .. so its kinda prefect and believed any nice gal wud agree to my pt anyways all this was going to fel apart today...............
i prepared my speech discussed with my frnds and let me make 1 thing clear the proposal was only for frndship nothing more or less than that ... see again i using my speech lines! prepared revised several times cuz i never had done so and never approached a gal whom i have never talked .. well as a matter of fact i have never approached any gal no matter if i know her or not!!
Bunked 2 periods and then went college in the 3rd period cuz i found out she had cp class so she wud be roaming out side for a while.. went and found out class engaged by some other teacher ok next time .. came in break and found her all over the college ,no sign of hers thought she might have left and as soon i was gonna leave saw her back and then me and my frnd who is also the same level of FATOOO as i m ,both marched towards her..
There she was standing outside of college with 2 more gals waiting 4 the bus .. we both reached there and dono ki FATTTI ,,we roamed abt over there 4 few mins and then with lots and lotss of strength, approached the gal fo the very 1st time in my life ..
Do quote my words,, went to her and said" exuce me ********* can i have a word with u plzz" she replied "yeah" a sec of slience and then i said "wud u plz cum over here 4 a while" And then the poison dipped arrow stucked right to my heart........SORRY was the reply and eveything fell apart...
I turned back and started moving .... Wat more cud i do.. can't tell her wat i wanted to in front of other 2 gals .. no i cud have never done that never.now m feeling a bit bad wat wud they all think abt me i went there with a nice thing and god knows how will they put this thing in front of other ppl..
All i can say is that this wasn't good .. i really think i cud ever thinks abt doing all this all again!.. well lots of nerve wud be needed for this purpose ...one try and u just got bashed away ..All the confidence wel i didn't had any ..but as we say success comes first and then confidence ...wat i got was not defeat,,defeat is something atleast u fought or stood but mine was like i didn't had any chance ..just 1 sec and wiped OUT.!!
Friday, September 01, 2006
My So called Protest..!!
Well it just seem to be nowdays fashion or wat i can say that its a trend to write blogs so here i m writing my maiden blog.. or rather i can put it as trying to write one.the thing which hold me from writing a blog till now was wat the subject to write upon and feeling of fear .not fear something i can't explain.i read many a blogs of my frnds all were good some were just mindblowing really pleasent to read them ,i just wanna write one as pleasent as them as good as them but i knew i cudn't soo this was my sole reason y i kept myself away from writing a blog.well then i realised it doesn't matter its just expressing ur views abt a subject thats all .
well where i can find a more heated topic to write other than the RESERVATION 1!so here is mine very own on the reservations or wat i called is my f***** off future!
yesterday i took part in a protest to reservations .my taking part in protest was a mixture of feeling that wud make a normal person abnormal and grammer teacher to hold his head.
Well the story began day before yesterday nite but its foundations was laid back on the day when i read the HT front page in the morning ...It was just a usual morning me lying in my bed at 8,30 in the morning and then there was a noise on my door like some atomic explosions happening right in front of me in my dreams.. dam man there was my roompartner banging on the door .a thought came to my mind y the hell is he out side my room and how cum my room is locked 4m inside . then after few secs i regained that i have kicked him out of the room to sleep somewhere else cuz i wanted a lonely moment with myself and my pc!!! Anyways me going away 4m the topic.. k got up 4m the bed saying "Kya yaar aaj phir se college uff sala zindagii jhand hai yaha" thats my usual line even if i had a bunch of holidays before that day !got down as i reside at 1st floor went down and found out my hostemates engaged in some seroius discussions .. just out of usual curiosity went out there to see wats the haaloluu was all abt and bang there i got a headshot as my frnd holded the front page right in front of my face and and said" deekh padh kya likha hai arjun (as is he was his childmate) ne kya kiya hai sala ma*********** ne reservation kar diya bhen ke ****** sala hamari marna chahata hai " i read 50% reservations 4 scst obc and said "god damit wat the hell".
for a few moments i kept thinking how wud it effect me and my future and then came the feeling of disgust and i just poured out some words of praise for arjun singh!!we just kept praising him 4 a while and then saw my watch to find out that i was actually gona be late 4 college. leaved all that just rushed out through my usual rutine work etc and that news was lost for that whole day until yesterday.. meanwhile i read abt protest in papers chatted abt it 4 a while and then carry on my work .wat happened yesterday was that some seniors came by the hostel and told that there was a raly in protest and we al have to go out there doesn't matter if u wanted or not cuz its kinda status 4 them bringing as much crowd as they can..watever i thought abt it,never been to any protest rally never seen any in real just heard and saw police lathicharge!! etc so decided fuck,, me not gona go ,use my contacts and say no to seniors!! after that in the nite there was only one question on every1 face just waiting to be asked so i myself said me going 4 it "(a white lie)well i thought wil see in the morning and say me not well or watever..again i got up around 9.00 a bit late cuz the bus 4 the protest was going to leave at 8.30 but my bad luck as i was going to the bathroom i got a voice 4m behind ..."eh heroo sun idhar aa "wel word hero sounded good cuz i look like1!!!turned and wat i see that senior was standing as if he was just waiting 4 me to get out of my room.........asked "chal raha hai na" i with a roonewala face told "sir meri attendence short hai " thought this wud work but he came with something better than mine .. said tell me the teachers u having attendnce prob i wil help as if he was the principle of our college.. and then i had to put my face on the sword.even then i didn't left my hope of not goin,, i tried ..intensionally got dressed up like was going 4 a party trying shoes etc wud have been ready 4 college for 5 times atleast in that time.. went out saw no bus and had a feeling of relief ...but mera BAD LUCK HI KHARAB THA got a voice "kaha tha ab tak jaldi kar tere liye bus wait kar rahi hai " GOD DAMIT!!
Well we all took fo from our college masti was going on .. all hostelers together in 1 bus thats kinda rare over here felt good like we were on a way to a picnic.. some guys were joking abt reservation some were just sight seeing .. i think u understand the word "sightseeing" for a normal human being it meant as usual but 19y old guys had something else in their brains!! kinda normal for us ..we al joked and sang all the way but the moment came our bus entered the arena of the protest saw polics vechiles and guys gals shouting all over man i can say that buri" FATTII" thii sab kuch bhool gaye wah ja kar.. but can't help ur brains atlast we r guys with no gf's.. one step outside the bus and there r the birds to watch i quote one thing here medicals chicks really rock in terms of sights!! anyways back to the topic we all came out with enthu cuz just wana impress the gals went out shouting ,, i overheard some gals saying here comes the engg quoting me as i had long hairs and looked good in rugged pair of jeans and football t-shirt ..(readers no use to comment on this part)
there were many a students from medical,from engg college and one thing which our guys were intrested in was the press and the TV channel present over there
some were hiding their faces and some "netaa" ppl wanted to be in limelight. we collected al banners i personally was intrested to have stickers on myself sa i felt it wud add to my CHARM!! and a way to approach the medi gals! so i did got some stickers showed enthu and showed support to the gals!! so after a bit of shouting we atlast started the rally all joking shouting slogans abt arjun singh and wat not abt him and some respect abt his family members also..nevermind we engg we get carried away by such things .. that the only way we can put it !
Til now it was all fun and fun i was also enjoying the rally and wasn't much abt the protest of reservations!reached our spot and did"CHAKAJAM" then suddenly seeing so many ppl around that place something inside me felt like r they all like us or their do care abt the reservations ..all the protest and hungerstrike in delhi etc is to be real not like us.well it may be sounding wat kinda person i m being like i really don't care but i m writing for the feeling that i felt over there in many a ppl.some were just 4 fun and some really protested.. anyways we had bananas and drinks to drink and then apne tikhane par wapas bus came again and we started to board into it .. well the journey wud be more fruitfull if i had been able to get to know more mentalities and feeling of some persons most of them being opposite sex...
thats all wat i wana put up or i wana oput something more anyways its too much 4 the readerss
plz don't even think of giving comments and specialy not on the part envolving my charms!! bad 4 ur health
THE BRAVEHEART !
. I did wrote this1 months before but posting it later..!
well where i can find a more heated topic to write other than the RESERVATION 1!so here is mine very own on the reservations or wat i called is my f***** off future!
yesterday i took part in a protest to reservations .my taking part in protest was a mixture of feeling that wud make a normal person abnormal and grammer teacher to hold his head.
Well the story began day before yesterday nite but its foundations was laid back on the day when i read the HT front page in the morning ...It was just a usual morning me lying in my bed at 8,30 in the morning and then there was a noise on my door like some atomic explosions happening right in front of me in my dreams.. dam man there was my roompartner banging on the door .a thought came to my mind y the hell is he out side my room and how cum my room is locked 4m inside . then after few secs i regained that i have kicked him out of the room to sleep somewhere else cuz i wanted a lonely moment with myself and my pc!!! Anyways me going away 4m the topic.. k got up 4m the bed saying "Kya yaar aaj phir se college uff sala zindagii jhand hai yaha" thats my usual line even if i had a bunch of holidays before that day !got down as i reside at 1st floor went down and found out my hostemates engaged in some seroius discussions .. just out of usual curiosity went out there to see wats the haaloluu was all abt and bang there i got a headshot as my frnd holded the front page right in front of my face and and said" deekh padh kya likha hai arjun (as is he was his childmate) ne kya kiya hai sala ma*********** ne reservation kar diya bhen ke ****** sala hamari marna chahata hai " i read 50% reservations 4 scst obc and said "god damit wat the hell".
for a few moments i kept thinking how wud it effect me and my future and then came the feeling of disgust and i just poured out some words of praise for arjun singh!!we just kept praising him 4 a while and then saw my watch to find out that i was actually gona be late 4 college. leaved all that just rushed out through my usual rutine work etc and that news was lost for that whole day until yesterday.. meanwhile i read abt protest in papers chatted abt it 4 a while and then carry on my work .wat happened yesterday was that some seniors came by the hostel and told that there was a raly in protest and we al have to go out there doesn't matter if u wanted or not cuz its kinda status 4 them bringing as much crowd as they can..watever i thought abt it,never been to any protest rally never seen any in real just heard and saw police lathicharge!! etc so decided fuck,, me not gona go ,use my contacts and say no to seniors!! after that in the nite there was only one question on every1 face just waiting to be asked so i myself said me going 4 it "(a white lie)well i thought wil see in the morning and say me not well or watever..again i got up around 9.00 a bit late cuz the bus 4 the protest was going to leave at 8.30 but my bad luck as i was going to the bathroom i got a voice 4m behind ..."eh heroo sun idhar aa "wel word hero sounded good cuz i look like1!!!turned and wat i see that senior was standing as if he was just waiting 4 me to get out of my room.........asked "chal raha hai na" i with a roonewala face told "sir meri attendence short hai " thought this wud work but he came with something better than mine .. said tell me the teachers u having attendnce prob i wil help as if he was the principle of our college.. and then i had to put my face on the sword.even then i didn't left my hope of not goin,, i tried ..intensionally got dressed up like was going 4 a party trying shoes etc wud have been ready 4 college for 5 times atleast in that time.. went out saw no bus and had a feeling of relief ...but mera BAD LUCK HI KHARAB THA got a voice "kaha tha ab tak jaldi kar tere liye bus wait kar rahi hai " GOD DAMIT!!
Well we all took fo from our college masti was going on .. all hostelers together in 1 bus thats kinda rare over here felt good like we were on a way to a picnic.. some guys were joking abt reservation some were just sight seeing .. i think u understand the word "sightseeing" for a normal human being it meant as usual but 19y old guys had something else in their brains!! kinda normal for us ..we al joked and sang all the way but the moment came our bus entered the arena of the protest saw polics vechiles and guys gals shouting all over man i can say that buri" FATTII" thii sab kuch bhool gaye wah ja kar.. but can't help ur brains atlast we r guys with no gf's.. one step outside the bus and there r the birds to watch i quote one thing here medicals chicks really rock in terms of sights!! anyways back to the topic we all came out with enthu cuz just wana impress the gals went out shouting ,, i overheard some gals saying here comes the engg quoting me as i had long hairs and looked good in rugged pair of jeans and football t-shirt ..(readers no use to comment on this part)
there were many a students from medical,from engg college and one thing which our guys were intrested in was the press and the TV channel present over there
some were hiding their faces and some "netaa" ppl wanted to be in limelight. we collected al banners i personally was intrested to have stickers on myself sa i felt it wud add to my CHARM!! and a way to approach the medi gals! so i did got some stickers showed enthu and showed support to the gals!! so after a bit of shouting we atlast started the rally all joking shouting slogans abt arjun singh and wat not abt him and some respect abt his family members also..nevermind we engg we get carried away by such things .. that the only way we can put it !
Til now it was all fun and fun i was also enjoying the rally and wasn't much abt the protest of reservations!reached our spot and did"CHAKAJAM" then suddenly seeing so many ppl around that place something inside me felt like r they all like us or their do care abt the reservations ..all the protest and hungerstrike in delhi etc is to be real not like us.well it may be sounding wat kinda person i m being like i really don't care but i m writing for the feeling that i felt over there in many a ppl.some were just 4 fun and some really protested.. anyways we had bananas and drinks to drink and then apne tikhane par wapas bus came again and we started to board into it .. well the journey wud be more fruitfull if i had been able to get to know more mentalities and feeling of some persons most of them being opposite sex...
thats all wat i wana put up or i wana oput something more anyways its too much 4 the readerss
plz don't even think of giving comments and specialy not on the part envolving my charms!! bad 4 ur health
THE BRAVEHEART !
. I did wrote this1 months before but posting it later..!
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