My First Time !! :P

It was a New place ….never visited...often new things tend to make u not so confident abt it so was I….anyways I tired to find my way In…time was running n I was running slow on it…I hurried n there were those Doors…I approached it with slow steps…not knowing how its gonna be in thr...I entered N it was pitch dark...Was looking for somthng that I cud recognize but cudnt find any…Mein thoda aur aage bhada...There I got a Hand directing me towards the end…N I took steps towards where I was pointed..To be honest was a bit shaky...Cuz it was all dark n I cudnt figure out n yeah having that feelin that there are some eyes..may be many eyes ..staring at U …make it even more shaky…N if Ur someone who is bit public conscious..then u may get an idea how it wud have been...N to add up to all of that..It was something I was doing for the Very First time…n wat if U r among the last ones to enter it...That there are many who r already in there ..settled comfortably...watching u getting all uncomfortable...Well at times U think that they mite be watching U ….U knw that mite not be true or IS not true but still that thought does lies in U….N thats wat adds to the nervousness…anyways I carried on to the end ..tring to visualize things under shimmering light that was coming from far away…but cudnt manage...n in a desperate attempt to not be fool among them all..i just clutched on the most near by wat I got...now after settling in…the first thing was to look around ur surroundings…get familiar with it…being unsure that whom it belonged…N being sure that it didn’t belonged to U for sure !!.. still being nervous about it but to act Kool...Believe me the last thing u wud ask at that point was to attract all the Attention...

Yeah so I dig in …thanks for the darkness...me being unsure abt it wasn’t visible to all…

After a couple of minutes got myself cooled down..finally mah eyes met for wat I was there...But as the time was passing by ..which made me realize that the thing I wastnt sure about belonging to me...surly didn’t belonged to anyone else..and so I was nearing to my comfort zone…

but somethings gonna happen for sure…if not wats the Twist in it… A voice happen to cross my ears...made me realize it was much near to me...which happen to be of a female...I slowly turned to the voice…N there was a female next to me…Oh man...at that point I was on a Brain Rush...many a things crossed my mind n I was trying to catch up on one of them…well wat if she knew that wat I wasn’t being sure of being mine..was hers..No it wudnt be Or I wudnt be still sticking to it...Or she knew that yeah It wasn’t mine..of course she would have realized that..as she was just NEXT to Me..!!! N then the most worst of them …Wat if she thought I did sticked to it on purpose …As she being rite next to it…But Yeah I was kool ..I mean trying to be…then it was like..Wat do I care…Do I knw her…Does she …Naah..then why do I give a Damm on wat comes to her mind…Well I started to concentrate on wat I was suppose to...N yeah I was Njoing that !!

Then came the halt...the darkness faded..lights were up…I cud finally figure out where I was sticking to..N but of course the Next to Me being !!

I hate to be left Alone….N here I wasn’t left…I was Alone...that makes it worse...So I just took out my cell N moved out ...get some air ..escaping from the whole not so alone crowd…!! I made a call ..made few fake calls :P !! Just trying to buy some time..being Not Alone !! Generally when Ur with a company..the halts r short ..But this one seemed to be Looong...may be the time get divided or distributed among company..well as I had none so it was all on Me to bare !!

It ended…I was back sticking to the same....but one thing was for sure it really didn’t mattered as there was scarcity of people in thr…N it was fine to stick to wateva U find Free….afterall “Wat Do I Care” feeling was alive In Me ..!!

The rest of the period was peacefull …Me sipping my Large Pepsi ..tring to make it last more longer..if cud make it more Large..aah it emptied …chalo got a taste of company for while..be it with a fountain of pepsi....Well I hate to say it n admit it…for Me Company word matters a lot....I hate doing things Alone...infact I don’t do it…sometimes to n extent I wont prefer to eat alone even If M hungry !! Yeah Yeah I knw …that’s Stupid but ….Yeah that’s ME !!

Well It was fine …Deepika padukone was nice to catch on for a change…n Giselli was ooommmhh....too cute !! ...at times my feet started moving n shoulders shaking in the Seat ..which of course made Next to ME…shift a bit !! Just wished koi aur hota toh shake along with !!

But Yeah somethings are to be done for the very First Time in Life ..Love Aaj Kal was my very First Movie ALONE in the Theater...Didnt Njoined to full extent but yeah wud try to aage se ..if I make a plan to make a venture Alone …this experience wud surly help !! :P

PS: I loved the line..... Tu ekdum sahi baat bol deti hai jaanemann..!!
(Lets see if I can try that on to someone .. !! :P !!)

Why..??

Well just some small bits i like put it down from now and then...!


Why do I feel like I am always all alone...
Why seems I am homeless,even when I am home..???

Why cant I try and yet not give a smile...
Why doesn't the world seem any worthwhile..???

Why do I always needed...people around ....
Happiness was never soo hard to be found ….

I don’t know what stops me from getting there...
Why it is the dullness… that I fear….???

Why do my days feel like a part of an incomplete trip...
Why does life now resemble a sinking ship...???!!!

At Nights I was left to succumb
Why did they always made me,so uncomfortably numb…

All I wanted was some …happiness to borrow….
Why am I always left as a….Man of constant sorrow...???

Why does it all happens to Me …
I just wonder Why He made me ..soo Lucky…???!!!




As in this was my very first successful attempt in putting down such a piece of writing..
Tried many a times..but all went in vain..!! I am totally aware that it does sounds too childish..but just take me as a Novice who's just tring to fit in !!

do line aur kahuga ..-

I just tried to pen down some of my thoughts here...
Please forgive me ...for all the pains U had to bear ..!! [:P]

Beast UnLeashed...

CAUTION: This blog rite here is negative..sarcastic…present some extreme views..So the choice is urs to go through the pains …!!!

Well 4 Years are gone by..On a happy note bachelors gonna end…I m gonna be Engg…and on the other hand….Colg life ends.. “Colg Life” this word holds a special place in everyones life period…It’s compose of the most cherisable moments of ur life..they say the best things happened to you ..but I m not so sure abt that…pardon me if my words represent me as a negative person …or gives u the idea of me being pessimistic…I dun blame myself for that ..may b wat I went thru if u wud have..u mite have ended with the same story ..or Not !!

I don’t know but yeah I missed a LOT in my colg life..I cant say that this Is wat I wanted out of it …Nope I cant ..there wasn’t any such thing happening to me wat I expected out to happen ..May be that’s wat my problem is ..I “EXPECT” …but that isn’t a bad thng after all …Y shudnt I...when u do things U should expect ..!! If u don’t Expect then how come can u do things...well “Expect” is a very liquid phenomenon ...well it can be Expect from Urself…or Expect from Others !! … Well we will settle down on the latter purpose of Expectation

Two basic things that I came across …in every field I tried to enter..In every single things I tired to do ….Two things were common and unfortunalty they were always thr..

Firstly spending time here with People made me realize ..well reliazed a whole lot of things but for now will stick to one … “Woman” was a very dominant factor in Ones Life ...U actually see the wat drastic changes a Woman can get into stuff ..yeah I was quite surprised..how the term “Woman” can move things around them ..but who is to blame for giving them that power….We ..!! Rite thru the beginning all I tired ..all I saw …was that the whole world around here revolving around them..No matter wat u do ..U will always find them ...starting off with one …

We …by “We” I meant me n my roommates...were hoping to take part in a Radio Show...

Were suppose to take part...we discussed …thot on that...evened practiced a bit on it…but later on due to certain lack of intrest the plan was not so successful…a day before I was waiting for practice..n others were busy boozing themselves End of story.On the very day of radio show...wat do I get to see…my partners...who were busying boozing themselves a day ago …were sitting on the stage with a Woman and taking part in the Radio show...!!Getting into a vacant place which was offered to me too...but as I had a hypothetical grp of mine…I denied..now that Woman made it happen…made them bunk classes..made them practice on the leisure time..and made me a Fool out of it…

I dun blame that Woman ..Y shud I ….

Since then n now..every move guys made..were planned..organised keeping “Women” under consideration...many incidents came by but I prefer not pointing them out as I wasn’t directly involved but went thru it...and also taking agony n standing apart from the crowd that too at the end …wudnt be preferable..!! diplomatic terms after all !! But the surprising part was..here ppl njoied with them and then called the filthy whores behind their back...the ones they laugh and hang ard…they come back n boost themselfs in public by vulgar n cheap comments abt them..How can u spend 2-3Hrs with them n then making a statement to people that We made it happen..n boosting off in public..as of they were materialistic charm for u...u njoied ..u bitched and Ur great!!....What I saw back from where I was …yeah Woman is afterall opposite sex so who wont be interested in them…thats natural…but it wasn’t them always ...And more importantly “ Women” wasn’t All ..it wasn’t everything !! ..there was a whole lot more to them…

Here you have some lazy asses who wudnt move a bit ..but just utter the word …"SHE” is also coming !! then u see…their asses moves like they were running for fuckin Olympics !! ..somehow I find this hard to get down my throat ..

After going through all of these small small things ..I do say....infact must say ...

It’s a Woman’s World !!!..And we Man made it …..!!

PS: After going thru ..U mite have some sarcastic remarks for me..mite b thinking If m pretending to be a Saint or somthng…but Its true...I am not the above…I don’t say I m a saint but yeah ..I not like that...may be my views wudnt make u happy..but they are my views and this is My blog...N I am Unleashing the Beast Within….!!